I was bossy the other day. I admit it, sometimes I am bossy. My mom always says I’m polite, but I think she’d agree that I’m bossy sometimes too. I wonder if it comes from being an older sister. Or from being a control freak. Or both. I don’t think pregnancy helps the situation either.
I am definitely having trouble with the control aspect of this pregnancy. I want to know when our little guy is going to be here, what he’s going to act like and look like and what our life will look like with him in it. I am beyond excited, but I do really struggle with the unknown!
In turn, I
wonder if know if I am trying more than ever to control other things in my life.
My husband and I talked about stenciling stars on the walls of the nursery and since he got out of work early the other day he wanted to be helpful. He said he was going to get all the supplies
and get it done. Long story short, I got uncomfortable and said “I thought that was something we would do together so we know exactly where to put them.” Read: I need control over this situation.
Poor hubby was just trying to be helpful and got a little frustrated with my nesting…or nursery OCD as he called it. I’m a lot more calm today (dang pregnancy mood swings) and can see that I might have been a little bossy. We talked about what we wanted to do and hubby said that he’d make the stencils so that we could be all ready to paint.
So today I got an email titled ‘H2 Strikes Again’ with the picture below. Side Note: He calls himself H2 when he’s being a helpful hubby. We have stencils!
I am such a planner that often times when things are out of my control, I can’t relax. I need to remember that only God knows when our baby will enter the world. He is in the driver’s seat. All I can control is how I am treating my body, which for the most part is good. I’m not perfect, but I’m trying to eat lots of healthy foods (and some unhealthy foods too ;-)) and I am trying to workout and stay fit doing pregnant kettlebell snatches and a million other workouts.
At this point I can continue trying my best to stay healthy, I can get things ready for the baby’s arrival and work towards being the best mom I can be. The rest…well it’s not up to me. I am not the boss even though I am bossy.
Do you have a hard time with the unknown? When you feel out of control do you compensate by being uber-controlling in other areas of your life?