Okay…I’ve been hinting (on Twitter) that there have been some pretty big changes happening in my life…or about to happen.
As you may or may not have figured out, I have been juggling a few too many things. I went back to work after maternity leave last August and have been working full time for the past year. I was working in the office 3 days a week and working at home 2 days a week most of the time.
In April, we officially opened our gym and I have been helping to run the business as well as teaching a few classes each week at night (which I love).
My amazing husband has been working a million hours a week in order to grow our business (and pay our bills) so I have been alone with CJ a lot too. I have been trying to make sure that our house isn’t a complete disaster (not an easy task with my messy one year old food thrower) and that our family has healthy food to eat and clean clothes to wear.
I’ll be honest…there were a lot of meltdowns and a lot of tears shed over the last few months. I was spread so thin that I didn’t feel like a good mom, a good wife or a good employee. My mind was always racing and I had trouble sleeping. Tuesdays and Thursdays became pure torture. My son was home and I wanted to spend time with him, but had to work. It wasn’t fair to him or me. He’s only going to be this age once and he needs his mom to be present and happy, not glued to a computer and grouchy.
Long story short, something had to give. Today is my last Monday at my current full time job. My last day of work is this Friday. (Did you guys even know that I’m a marketing manager at a technology company?)
Back in March, I wrote a post where I talked about moving forward despite imperfect conditions. I have been working as a marketing manager at different technology companies (mostly) since graduating from college over 9 years ago and I have never been fulfilled by my career. I worked hard, met some great people and had some good times over the years, but technology is not my passion (if you know me at all, you already know this). My passion lies in helping others become healthier and happier through fitness and nutrition. (duh)
From here on out, I’m going to be putting all of my effort into my family and SOS. I have been tired, stressed and, quite frankly, miserable to be around for far too long. My husband actually told me that I have been a completely different person since we made this decision final. I think he even remembers why he married me. Phew!
In all seriousness, my work and the stress of having too much on my plate (I kind of hate that expression, but it works here) was wearing on me in all areas of my life.
Is it going to be all sunshine and rainbows from here on out? Heck no. There are going to be some major consequences to me completely switching careers. I’m still going to be working my butt off and it’s certainly not going to be easy, but I know in my heart that this is the best thing for our family right now.
I’m excited that I’ll have a few days each week to focus on being a mom instead of being glued to my computer when CJ is around. I’m thrilled that I will have more opportunities to meet other local moms. I can’t wait to spend more time at the gym teaching additional classes, taking on new personal training clients, providing nutrition consults, writing online training programs and blogging. After all this time, I’ll finally be able to honestly say that I’m passionate about my job.
So, in case you haven’t figured it out yet. I’m happy. For the first time in my life I feel like I am leaving a job not because I am running away from something (instability, long commutes, bad attitudes, etc.), but because I am running towards something(s) I love: more time with my family and helping others reach their goals.
Have you ever taken a risk or made a major career change to do something you love?